You Are Your Speech

"Be mindful of your self-talk. It's a conversation with the universe." — David James

We have between 50,000 to 70,000 thoughts per day. 80% of them are repeated daily (you know, since HUMANS, and we're naturally creatures of habit.) Crazy, right? So, are you listening to what you're saying to yourself?

The way we talk to ourselves is a direct reflection of how we feel about ourselves, and, in return, how we love ourselves and perceive the situations and people in our lives. When you're constantly filling your self-talk dialogue with "I cants" or "'I'm not", those frequencies are bouncing out in the universe and manifesting in reality. So, if you're out here constantly telling the universe that you aren't worthy of X and Y, guess what? The cosmos are gonna roll with whatever you're saying and make sure you keep receiving mediocrity or the lowest forms of manifestation.

Recognition + Confrontation

When I finally realized that my hard and angry perception of others stemmed from the fact that I had a hard and angry perception of myself, I became...sad(welcome to my Pisces world).  I became frustrated at my entire being. I did not understand and could not remember when I had become so angry and hateful or why. All I knew at that moment was I that I no longer wanted to feel this way. I no longer wanted to wake up in the morning, look in the mirror and think "ehw"( and that's even if I looked in the mirror at all). I grew weary of comparing myself against others which resulted in me minimizing and forgetting my own special gifts and uniqueness. The relationships that I had cultivated with this mindset proved to foster unhealthy spaces and even further reinforcement of my "I cants" and "I'm not" and I. WANTED. OUT.  And I innately knew that the only way to change and shift my outer reality, was to come terms with my inner truth and the way that I spoke it to myself.

I never truly believed any of the ugly and hurtful thoughts and words I had spewed at myself and others, but they manifested from the pain and anger that I held from inside of me. Low vibrational thoughts and spaces had given me a dark home to run to, but I was tired of being misery's company. My thought frequencies were a prison, and I was the warden. It was time to vibrate higher - I was ready to create a peaceful inner home where I could return to when when I needed myself the most, a home that would not turn me away with "I can't" or "I'm not".

Transcending + Daily Practice

 The shift that I created through telling myself how worthy I am  and how beautiful I am and how peaceful I am disrupted the misery that I had stood in - people, places and things left me. But with each and every thought that transcended from an "I can't" to an "I can, "I am" or "I manifest" drove me closer home to myself and an inner peace that could not be matched by any outside force. With each and every old part of myself that fell away, I became lighter. My thoughts created light in my life - a light that continues to guide me to Self and to a life full of love and high frequency. New paths and connections revealed themselves to me in response to me choosing to think lighter and thus, BE lighter.

Low vibrational self-talk is a bad habit and often times a result of programming. But like all habits and programming, it can be broken with some serious self-discipline and self-love indulgence. And just like any habit or skill, it takes practice. Staying present and recognizing your thoughts at each and every moment is difficult, but not impossible. To  transcend your thoughts into a more peaceful state, you have to first realize and confront the voices in your head feeding you illusions of what you "cannot" or "are not". You have to find the source of your low vibrational thoughts, and make a decision on how to transcend and let those parts of you go.

Be kind when talking to yourself. Forgive yourself often. Sit in the mirror for thirty minutes a day and just talk to yourself - ask yourself how you're felling, tell yourself how amazing you are and how fly you look. (See:Issa Rae) Just be with yourself and make a conscious effort to recognize where your thoughts are, how they sound (is this thought mine or is this something someone said to me?), and what you can do to make them 'feel good' thoughts. "Be impeccable with your word" as Don Miguel Ruiz would say. And do not curse yourself when it does not always work out. Obstacles are a part of our lives - so when you make a mistake don't be nasty to yourself, recognize the lesson and tell yourself you love yourself, in spite of any shortcomings. Check yourself when you have to. ("You know better than that. I love you. You got this.")

And BE. PATIENT. WITH.YOURSELF. The journey is a process. It's been more than two years since I came to this realization and really threw myself into myself and put in the work. I still come up short sometimes but now, I don't hate myself or curse myself for it. I talk myself through whatever it is, with immense amounts of love. I allow my thoughts to be and transcend the ones that do not resonate with the frequency I want to be on - I choose the thoughts that manifest peace and abundance and love into my life.

You are your words. Choose wisely. Choose lovingly.